the love for anything that moves esp bikes! oh yes, and blushers. what a contradiction! :)

Monday, August 04, 2008

i was surfing ard for hostels in HK and BKK when i received an impromptu msn msg from sheena. sheena was a friend tt i made when i did PT at the airport like 2 years back. despite our age difference, we clicked so well. she was 18 when i was 20 so i guess she is ard 21 now.

she said she was sooooo happy to see me online and we chatted. as the conversation went on, she told me she broke up w her bf. i was so shocked. 1stly, she was such a nice girl, 2ndly the bf and her went thru alot to be together, 3rdly, they were so much in love.

im sorry if i have to say this, but i dunno wat is wrong with guys lately. i know this is gonna be such a sweeping statement, but i have seen too much happening to my friends tt i cant help but to generalise. apparently, her bf left her bcos of the temptations out there like girls who are too eager to flatter him (bcos he has an attractive built). earlier on, i had another friend whose bf saw another girl out there while she was with him. she forgave him and they got back together and lately i heard he is back to his own ways.

dont they know wat is faith and loyalty to rships? are rships tt vulnerable and fragile these days? or there are too much temptations outside? temptations, to me is never an excuse. in life, we make choice. u choose to love tt someone, u choose to be faithful, you choose to do something and u dont choose to do the other. it is a fact that we can choose what we want to do to make a rship work but why are there poeple who do not understand the very essence of rship and do not try to make it work when they have already decide to bring the frenship to another level.

i feel pain for this fried of mine. i knew how badly she wanted him then (when i frist knew her) and i saw the spark in her eye whenever we talk abt him. i was so happy for her when one day she told me they are together finally. the conversation tt we had over msn was sth tt i least expected.

after leaving the PT job at the airport, we went our ways. i completed my degree and found myself a job, while she quitted from her accountancy dip to embark on her early child psychology PT dip and FT child care teacher. we were TT far after we left there, but it is a fact tt we always thot of each other because of the rare but spontanteous msgs to each other like "SHEENNNNNA I JUST PASSED MY BIKE LICENCE" or "JOAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNA I LOVE YOU."

today i ran an errand for crispy, ended buying 3 items from the face shop, 2 tees and a few cards. im so determined to make my fren smile. i hope to do sth for her tmr and prob will drop by at her workplace tmr to pass this friend whom i havent seen for close to 3 years.

falling out of love is never an easy thing. but im so proud tt she took it so positively. i quote her..

All that confidence is back in me now. You know, I was walking back home from the bus stop just an hour ago. I was alone during that short walk and when i felt the wind kissing my face, I smiled. I felt beautiful, inside-out. I haven't had such a feeling for so so long... It's amazing. Amazing.

I may have lost one thing but I gained so many.

Dear God, thank you for letting me see the things I failed to see. The things that truly matter to me... I've got it all back now, in me.

Think of a breakup this way -It just means that I am one step closer to meeting the one I am meant to be with.

Don't you all worry about me!

我长大了, 真的.

im so proud of you my dear friend.

to those people who there who dont cherish rshsip, it would be your busines to deal with. please do not drag harmless people who are looking for true love. find those people who arent serious in rships as well to begin well. hopefully one day u taste ur own medicine. i have no sympathy for such.