the love for anything that moves esp bikes! oh yes, and blushers. what a contradiction! :)

Thursday, March 15, 2007

fwah. i feel like i have disappeared from my blog for a long long time.

i feel emo today so i shall type sth emo-y. haha but i might not do so after i type my crap.

im left with 1 chem report which im confident of completing by 6pm and then i can have my home cooked dinner at home. i completed one chem report and my emotional report (on anger aspect for females working in male-dominated work places). and i rot and rot and slpt till 12pm today with vegetarian bee hoon for bfast this morning. woah, good life man.

i chased my sister away at 12.45pm away cos i needed to use the comp for my lab report and to blog (hush hush)

i went to the loo and im back with herbal tea and as well as caramel corn snack frm daiso. oh, they so do not go together cos they are not complementary. but heck, i enjoy my life like tt.

since yest when my prof said okay to come in ltr for my test on 26 march, i feel so light-hearted. i think im crazy already cos i am planning to go down to my fei mei's good fren's daddy shop to buy my 2nd hand bike on the spot. (majiam i will pass first time, but i definitely hope so la!)

and okay, since i was so bored, i read my past essays and i went like "WOAH I DIDNT KNOW I WROTE THIS." the standard was unbelievably high to be written by miss joanna yong siew lin. lol.

i wrote an essay on "is there existence of film industry in singapore from 1990s onwards" and i also presented on "whether business patents or trade secrets will work best for companies" and i researched abt pepsi marketing strategies too!

and i had an annoying call frm someone. if i have the chance to reach her now, i would definitely glue her mouth with the WORLD-STICKIEST-AND-STRONGEST-SUPER-GLUE. she talks too much and i think she has a pea brain cos she does not ustand my points after being her fren for so bloody long.

alright. grumbles are coming to an end.

tmr i have class from 9-4pm which i have promised myself ONCE AGAIN to stay till the very end and attend the OCBC carer talk. and i have make up class sat and i AGAIN promise myself to stay in sch to do revision cos exams are like 1 month away. okay, make tt 30 days. 30 sounds more than 1.

=)

oh why i felt emo today?

okay, i read blogs. and there was this girl whose bf proposed to her. there is another fren of mine who is studying in aust and the gf just went over to accompany him. then another fren's fren whose partner travels on a very frequent basis for work came back and they are enjoying quality time now. lastly, another this sec fren of mine was telling how blissed she felt cos she has a more mature bf who is gg thru the thick and thin with her bcos she is having hard time now.

love.

woah. i sound as if i am damn pro and i am aunt agnoy or sth.

but no.

wat i am gg to ponder is why do u love who u love now and why not others who have crossed ur path in the past or even now?

i realised, i have nothing to talk abt cos i dunno how to ans tt qns.

so back to my crap.

tt day, someone was telling me that her fren, after gg to perth changed alot, did this and tt. she pierced her tongue and is planning for tatoo.

im pretty open minded. so to me, they are no biggie. i personally have piercings on my ears. in fact i have 12 of them, 6 on each ear. i believe, so long u dont cause harm to ur body and cause harm to others indirectly/directly, u are free to do watsoever to ur body so long u can take care of any potential consquences.

simple, my theory is really simple.

but bcos i have some background knowledge abt this girl, i blurted out "wah, she either lacks attention or/and she feels inferior of herself and that is why she is doing all these."

my mouth stinks. really la. i cant believe i am so meeeeean. but too bad, either u love me or u dont. =)

i have an issue with such people. or rather i shld say, i pity such people. they lack the kinda self-esteem and confidence and they inflict such pain onto themselves to make themselves feel good. but the saddest thing is, sumtimes they dont even feel more confident after tt. tt means their pain isnt worthwhile. oh man, sad case.

i rem when i was in sec1 and 2, i liked to go against my teacher and pierced earholes almost every fornight. i didnt do that bcos i lack confidence (everyone who knows me know how thick skinned i am. haha.) but rather i was sick and tired of following the rules all the time. i liked the feeling of being rebellious and breaking the rules all the time cos i felt empowered. but as i grow older, i realised rules are meant for creating order and stability and there is always a reason for each rule created thou the rationales can be pretty dumb sumtimes.

and then subquently, i realised there are rule-breakers like me too. but they do it for a totally diff reason. they need the care, attention, love from pp tt they lack. seriously, i tnink they are a bunch of poor thing people bcos they cant get the attention frm people they need. but i dont see why they have to resort to the perceived unhealthy ways to get such attention.

life is abt choices, isnt it. there are alot of things tt pp can do, but why do some pp choose to tk the easier but detrimental way? :(

as for my fren's fren, i can only say i feel so sad for her bcos she is resorting to such painful ways to seek the kinda attention and fun tt she thinks would be the best for her. well, i hope she grows up soon. *pat pat* u are such a sad case. =D

never mind if you dont have looks, figures, qualifications.

let ur chracter and personality shine thru bcos i believe these are the most lasting one though looks, figures and qualifications may prove to be a stepping stone and better grounds to build on confidence. looks, figures and qualifications can be altered. but personality cant.

i love the confidence in a woman. tt is the essence of a woman and those w/o it should learn how to cultivate them and not rely on silly ways to build them.

i like the beauty and confidence in a kid.

the innocence is so luring.

rem to smile each and single day. :)